the park

It was never going to be an ordinary day. Mark sitting there in the park alone wondering how his live will be going. It was his last day in the city. since he born he never settled in on place because of his parents job as journalist, Mark is 17 years old now and dont have any single friend because of his situation that alwasys make him move out suddenly. He already tired of asking about how hard his life to his parents, or begging to not move but his parents always answer with "this is the last time" and few weeks later when they discover a new place to settled . its not like that they were pursued by police or debt collector it just that both his parent have adventurer soul that sadly didnt inherited to Mark.

Back from his musing. There were Mark still sitting with lonely look, he did not realize that there were another person standing behind him. Mark snaped out from his dream when she politely asking to mark about the direction to the nearest taxi stand. She looks very young and shy. Mark was blanked for few second before poiting exactly the direction to the taxi stand. Mark maybe dont have the adveturer soul likes his parent, but sure enough he got thos adventurer instict that he can remember every detail of the city even he just stay there for few months.then she asking thanks to mark and go to the direction where mark point few second later she already gone  out of mark sight.

Still sitting on the park bench mark now thinking about the girl. He wonder if she is the same age with him. Or she is a tourist, because he never she the girl around the park before.once again he slpaed out from his musing by the girl. The girl smiling politely and tell Mark could not find the taxi stand. This time mark stand out and help the girl find the taxi stand. Mark very sure that the taxi stand should be there in the place where mark tell the girl, after arriving, mark know that he was right about the place but the road were under maintenance so there  were no taxi. He then asked the girl where she want to go. The girl answered mark that she want to go to the local museum. Mark told the girl that i wasnt so far from the park and he willingly to take the girl there. At first the girl was shy and did not want to troubling mark. The they started to know each other her name was christa and she is on her vacation alone because she like to explore new place. Mark also tell the story of how his parent used to to explore new place. They have a lot in common and it turn out that mark last day was not like he imagine. He meet a new friend with same situation with him. They make promise that every year they will meet in this city right at those in the park. Its very sad for mark to left the city when he finally able to be friend with someone.

The next year mark trying to meet the same girl in the same park. They were promise each other to meet in the park. when Mark arrived in the city, suddenly the memories of her kick in. but when he arrives in the park it was no longer there. the park is gone. only a few demolished tree and half built building can be found. he lost the park and he know that he loss her too. now they got nowhere to find each other.for 5 years Mark visited the location that used to be the park to wait for her. until finally she show up in the 6th years, nothing said between them she cry and hug Mark knowing that he always there waiting for her.

unrequited

This is a story about high school friend of mine who is now study in Indonesia. his name is Dave and this story happened long time ago while we are in the last year of high school. Dave is an average looking, average smartness, not that attractive,but a very helpful and nice person. short story he has a crush  on a girl in our grade. she was average girl, not that attractive,not that smart,  she is just cute.

so my friend successfully approached the girl in few moths. my friend were so kind to this girl. Dave almost do anything to this girl, for example be her private shuttle, give her expensive presents, and also talk with her everyday. it was just the matter of time before they start to date. she was also already into Dave. everything was very perfect for Dave, at least that was what he though. what the worst thing could happen anyway ,that what he said to me if i ask about his unclear relationship. they were very close to each other but yet they have not start dating.

then it was in the middle of final years holiday. i decided to go to Singapore with Dave and my other friend. we went to Singapore for one week. And only in 1 week, the worst thing happen to Dave. every night during our trip to Singapore Dave always call his crush for more than 2 hours. but he never told my and my friend what happen between them, we though everything was fine. We did not notice at that time that Dave became more quiet and always stargazing.

later we know that he were no longer with his crush, his soon to be girlfriend. he told me the story with tears felt down from his eye. as a friend,  i try my best to listen to him. not to be gay but i ask him to move on from that girl because she did not worth his tears. she leave Dave because someone else likes her. And just like that she choose those boy who just flirt once with her over Dave who always there for a long time.  How a girl could be so cold and mean. after those tragedy Dave always try to busy himself with sport or another activity that can make him forget about the girls. eventually the girl move to Singapore while Dave study in Indonesia. The girl already dating with the boy whose she choose after Dave, and live happily ever after now. i think you already guess the ending of this story you should think that those kind of girl not deserve any other chances with Dave. eventually Dave is a dumb, persistent, but Sweet person. he still waiting for her.even she is dating with another person, Dave always asked about her condition.

at first me and all my friend always mocking Dave how he could wait for those kind of girl who dump him already. but then i what if you are in Dave position. i mean what if you loves that girls so much that you bear all the pain. because if i think about it. i realize that the girl was Dave first love, and How could he forget all the memories with her, pain can be forgotten but good memories stay forever. at this point i then salute his stupidity.

Time

Inside the NAFA gallery "anothermountainman" stood up lot art piece from different artist. the one i choose that can be reflected to create a story is the clocks one, titled "live now". Its a piece of art that simply as the remainder for us of TIME. because as the description about it

"When is now?"

"Where do we go next?"

"What did we just do now?"

"Work on A now? or do B first?"

"Live now"

"Explicitly now"

"Focus my self at now"

"The click of the now clock"

"Is like the chime at a Buddhist temple"

"Calling my soul, my mind"

"Back to now"

its all about time. As the artist to express his feeling about what we should aware the most is time. because time is limit, we all live in this limit with nothing we can do about it. So we have to focus, focus to what we doing right now and there is no time to worrying because in the end what matter is Now. As i learn it in a very hard way that my best friend left me. Its make me notice that we live in Time, we live in limit, not only ages, but everything, as almost everything have their time and period. You maybe wont notice now how your friendship will be over one day. and when the times come you can only think why?, what just happen?, even friendship can be limited by time. so focus on now and give everything you had.

As you read this sentence, you probably think that this moment right now is what is happening. The present moment feels special. It is real. However much you may remember the past or anticipate the future, you live in the present. Of course, the moment during which you read that sentence is no longer happening. This one is. In other words, it feels as though time flows, in the sense that the present is constantly updating itself. We have a deep intuition that the future is open until it becomes present and that the past is fixed. As time flows, this structure of fixed past, immediate present and open future gets carried forward in time. This structure is built into our language, thought and behavior. How we live our lives hangs on it.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Jar of heart

Every song have their own reason to be made, even dubstep. wonder that every artist create a song from different stories, background, what they have gone thought. So basically what i'm trying to say is that every song have different elements that the song writers's trying to express and communicate maybe its their pain or their story or even their feelings about their past. one of song that i have interest is Jar Of heart from Chistina Perri, because of the how the song itself can express the feeling and make us wonder "whats behind this song? "

Jar of hearts itself is a story about trust. The song lyric have deep meaning and still quite easy to in to understand and catch the story. Its begin about how disappointed you are when your love leave you with someone else. When you started to able to move on. he is back and try to make you trust him but the hollow he leaves was so deep that you afraid he will hurt you again. Leaving you with a trust issues. 

the story started with a girl that left alone by his boyfriend. left with severe heart broken she cannot trust her boyfriend again. she try to move on, it wasn't easy but she almost went through it. She's trying to stay away from him, because she knows that she can still fall back for him if he does. But she would really regret it if it would happen, because he has changed, he wasn't the man she used to love, and she's not going to chase for his love and attention anymore.

she once almost died when they parted, and now he's coming back.She's telling that he should stop being a playboy, because all he's doing is hurting people. He has already hurt a lot of hearts. It took her so long to move on and to remind herself of the things that she has to be thankful of and to look forward to.

 She regrets having experienced their relationship, because it only gave her false hopes.

 And now he's back(Probably asking for her forgiveness), but she'll wont let him fool her again, because she knows his ways.

the end of story the girl has no feeling anymore to the guy while the guy still trying so hard to get the girl back . He is also trying to get all the other girls he has hurt but none of them want to be with him.leaving him alone.

Lost Forever

In every age there are many events that impressive and influential because memories are part of life . Without them life would be meaningless because we do not have memories to keep . Childhood experiences that most impressed me occurred when I was eleven years old . I never imagined how my grandfather 's death would be the most memorable events of my childhood but somehow it .

My grandfather died at the age of fifty- three . He is everything to me and I adore him . I became very sad and depressed when he died . He had a stroke because he has high blood pressure , the left side of his body paralyzed and he could not speak , so my mom and step - father rushed her to hospital and he was immediately hospitalized . He was there for about a month . At the time of his speech is getting better because of regular exercise , but he can not use his arms or legs without the help of a nurse or one of us .

After a while , the doctor told us we could take it home and help do the exercises themselves . A week after my grandfather at home everything looks fine and he's improved , he makes jokes and using his hands and feet anymore . Then suddenly one night he told me he did not want me to sleep on the side because he wants to sleep on his own . I'm a little upset that he wanted it , but I accepted it and decided to sleep in my mother's room .

The next morning I got up early and went straight to my grandfather's room to check on him . I tried to wake him because I thought he was asleep , but he did not move . I called his name and he did not answer , so I ran into my mother's room and woke him up . As soon as she saw me she started crying grandfather . I immediately knew he was dead and I dropped on the floor . I could not stop crying . .

Death of my grandfather taught me many things . It taught me that things do not ever come out as you expect . There is always a surprising end . But most importantly it taught me was to love my family , especially my parents because I never know when death will take them away from me . So it is best for me to show them how much I love them when they are still alive.